Isn’t it the best feeling when you find something you feel SO confident in? Like when you walk out the door, you instantly hear some girl power Beyoncè music playing in the background because you feel so good?
Until the moment your friend makes fun of you for wearing the very thing that made you so happy. And you’re like oh…
I am type of person who wears what I want, no matter who likes it or hates it. If I feel good, then I’m going to wear it.
But I can’t pretend that I don’t consider my friends’, my mother’s, my boyfriend’s opinion. There have been many times where I have been questioned for loving something. Take this choker for instance. I am obsessed. I want to wear it with everything. BUT my boyfriend, best friend, and mother all think it looks like a shoe lace tied around my neck.
I’ll give it to them, it does sort of look like a glorified shoe lace. BUT I LIKE IT.
It never feels good when your favorite people are not jamming with your new favorite thing. But you know something? It makes me happy. I feel confident, even if my friends and family don’t like it. I fully appreciate that my friends and family are so close with me that they can be completely honest. However, I still think that if you love something, you should probably just rock it anyways.
If it makes you feel good, do it. (Cue the Sheryl Crow, If it Makes You Happy.)
These are some of my all-time favorite pieces in my wardrobe right now. I have had negative comments from various people about almost every piece of this outfit. Sometimes you just have to fight that, and say no, I am feeling this and I am going with it. Honestly, if I listened to all of those people, I would not be the person I am. (I certainly would’t dress the way that I do.)
And here I am again relating fashion to life. But, it totally mixes in this case. If someone doesn’t like what you’re wearing, how you act, or the things you like, ITS OKAY. You are your own person, and the world would not be the same if you tried to be someone else. If they are your true friends, they will love you no matter if you are a theatre geek, if you sing obnoxiously in the shower, or if you wear a shoe lace for a necklace.
Yeah girl just be YOU
Thanks for reading my lame, mushy, power to yourself post.
I was so excited to find our copy of Harry Potter and the Cursed child on our doorstep yesterday. I immediately cued the Harry Potter soundtrack and got cozy in bed to read.
If you don’t already know, I am a HUGE Harry Potter fan. Fun Fact: I have The Deathly Hallows tattooed on my right ankle. So you know it’s real.
Anyways, I was extremely happy when I heard that the script for The Cursed Child was going to be a released. However, after reading, I have mixed emotions.
What I loved:
Firstly, I did actually really love the story itself. I liked the whole plot, and I liked what she did with some of the new and old characters. I liked that she incorporated the past into the new story.
I sort of felt like she addressed some things that were never really expressed in the books previously that just needed to be said. I also feel like this story is a response to many people criticizing her choices that had to be made to make the story worth reading. (Life, death, character choices… you know.)
I also LOVED Hermione’s career choice. Yay feminism! Yay! You can be anything you put your mind to!
I liked how she discusses some of the emotions that Harry felt after the war, and throughout his childhood, and how it affected his adult life.
This book was a really quick read for me, and was definitely a page turner. But this also leads to what I didn’t quite like about the book.
What I didn’t like too much:
This book was a really quick read for me, and was definitely a page turner. However, I think it was a quick read because it was in script format. I am a fast paced reader, and I was quite excited to see what happened in the story. With those two things combined, I felt like the story was rushed, and that everything happened fairly quickly.
I blame the quickness on the fact that it was in script format. I don’t mind reading in script format. (I grew up doing theatre and reading scripts, so this is hardly a foreign territory.) But honestly, there wasn’t much room for character development, setting descriptions… or any descriptions really. Many of those factors truly make J.K. Rowling’s writing what it is. In the other books, she keeps you engulfed in a whole new realm with details and nuances in her writing. This book simply does not have that, which was a huge disappointment.
Without the character development, it was hard not to see moments of cheesiness. These moments may not have been cheesy if I was able to put myself in that space and time. However, without details, without descriptions, I found myself feeling off while reading certain lines. (I really didn’t want to feel this way, and was pretty much in denial until I finished the book and looked back on all the events that happen.)
This script actually just made me want to see the show in London. I feel like with actors in front of me, developing the characters, giving me the right reactions and feelings behind the lines, I think I would really enjoy it. When you think of the beautiful thing that could be made from this script, it really makes you appreciate it.
I went in expecting a full-fledged Harry Potter novel. This is not what it was, so there was some disappointment there. I want to read it again, and take my time to let my mind wander and develop for itself. I think during the first read, I was truly rushing through, just so I would know what happens in the end.
Advice to those who have yet to read it:
-Go into it slow, and pause to let your mind dream up the characters and settings.
-Get ready for some mushy gushy moments. Get ready for some cheese ball moments.
-If you don’t remember Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire OR Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. Re-read them.
-Go into it with no expectation.
All for now, Didn’t want to write too much and spoil it for others!
Since my last post was full of all the negative things I experienced in retail, I wanted to balance it out with some of the positive experiences I had. Every moment in life has a hidden lesson, and in the past three years I have learned a lot.
I think the most positive part about working at Anthropologie was being surrounded by such a wonderful team. I always said, “If you ever need a confidence boost, just walk through our doors!” Every day, the team was always there to welcome you, tell you how cute your outfit was, and they were absolutely genuine about it. Sure, dealing with snarky customers isn’t always fun, but at least you had your team there to back you up and push you through your day.
One of my biggest challenges was learning how to deal with situations with grace and dignity, even when they did not deserve an ounce of grace. There were many moments I had to learn from. Being in a customer service role is not always sunshines and daisies, but you learn. Working in retail truly tests your patience. Over the years, I had to learn to let some things go, and to not get so worked up about them. There could have been moments where I had every right to scream at the top of my lungs, but didn’t. I had to learn control, and kindness. This translated in my personal life in big ways.
The customers weren’t all bad though. I definitely had my fair share of favorite regulars that would come in. It’s amazing how involved you can actually become in some of these ladies’ lives. Over the years I have seen women go through dramatic weight transformations, go through divorces, have babies, get married and loose loved ones. The fitting room can be a really vulnerable place. I have heard many stories throughout my time in that store. Somehow I felt connected to many of these women, even though I only saw them for a few hours, maybe once a week. Sometimes I knew that I might be the only person they could objectively talk to. I was there to give style advice, but also to listen, and to listen with my heart. I loved the bonding experience I had with many of the customers.
With job skills, I would say that I was able to advance myself quite a bit of the past couple of years with Anthropologie. I was able to dip my hands in many areas of the business. From hiring, to growth and development, to selling, to events, to social media marketing, and actually running the floor, I gained so much experience. With Anthro, I had my first big interview too. I applied for an internship at home office about a year and a half ago. I passed the first couple rounds of applications, and the company flew me out to Philly for an interview. I was so nervous that I probably talked nonsense during the actual interview. Hindsight is always 20/20 and there are plenty of things that I could have done to be better prepared. BUT, it really did give me the opportunity to grow and learn. (Not to mention, to see a glimpse of Philly and home office!)
There was also the benefits of throwing parties and events! I live for that sort of thing, so I always enjoyed planning all of the birthday events and the stylist events. I most enjoyed putting together pop-up markets. Something about giving opportunity to local businesses is just so awesome to me.
Overall, I would not trade in my experience for the world. When I started at Anthropologie I was 20 years old, and I feel like I have truly done a lot of growing since then. The experience I had there, and the mentors that came along with it truly helped shape who I am now.
Today is my last day in the retail world. Retail is tough, and as a manager, you get to deal with all of the lovely people who come into the store or call on the phone. Don’t get me wrong, most customers are great… but some customers make the job harder than it should be.
To celebrate my last day, I give you: You might be a bad customer if….
If you get upset with the store team when they don’t tell you when something is going to go on sale… (PS- we actually don’t know, and we don’t decide.)
If you try to return something from 2 years ago. Yes this happens, yes it happens a lot.
If you return a quilt because your dog chewed it up.
If you try to return something without a receipt, or tags, and expect to get cash back.
If you get upset with the staff because UPS lost your package… because obviously that is OUR fault.
If you get upset that you have to wait in a line. That’s life sista.
If you throw items into a team members hands, like a servant, instead of kindly handing them over and thanking them for starting your fitting room.
If you ask to use our employee discount because “you’re here all the time anyways…” No, you SHOP here. We WORK here.
If you ask us if we have a restroom and then get upset when we don’t have one.
OR if you get upset that we didn’t let you use our EMPLOYEE RESTROOM.
If you DEMAND to use our employee restroom.
If you take out your bad day on us. I’m sorry you’re having an awful day, but that is also not my fault.
If you decide to take a shopping spree 10 minutes before we close. Yes this happens frequently.
If you leave your items at the cash wrap, don’t tell anyone, and then get upset when they have been put away.
If you let your children run wild throughout the store while you continue to shop.
If you let your child talk back to the staff….
If you let your child touch all of the breakable things in the store.
If you bang on the doors and demand to be let in after we have closed the store.
If you scream at the staff for things that are out of their hands.
If you scream at the staff until they give you the sale discount that ended three days ago.
If you ask to use one of our employees’ phone chargers, and then get upset when we don’t have one/ let you use one.
If your child pees in the middle of the fitting room floor, and you expect the employees to clean it up.
If your dog poops in the middle of the store, and you simply leave it there.
If you break something in the store, and you simply leave it there.
If you complain about how expensive everything is.
If you try to haggle with the staff. We don’t determine the prices, in case you were wondering.
If you get mad at the staff when the power goes out and we have to take every transaction by hand. PS- We didn’t make the power go off.
If you say, “it didn’t have a tag, so it must be free!” WOW YOU ARE SO FUNNY!
Honestly, I could probably write a whole book about the crazy stories from my time in retail, but we will save that for another time.
You don’t have to compare your life to others. You are on your own journey in this life. You don’t have to be thinking about marriage, or kids, or that big promotion. Do you. Do your life at your own pace.
It is TOTALLY okay to cry. In fact, its good for you. It isn’t natural to bottle up your emotions. There should be no guilt involved with crying, or expressing yourself.
3. Not cleaning.
The laundry will get done eventually, and the kitchen will get cleaned. Some days, you just need to relax, and save it for another day. Do it for your own mental health.
4. Changing to benefit your life.
This one has been a tough one for me recently. I have felt some guilt for leaving behind a team that counted and depended on me. However, this new job has presented some great opportunities for my life, and will benefit me in the end. I have to remember to let go of the guilt.
5. Eating dessert. And eating it first.
Of course, it is good to watch what you eat. But let’s be honest. You have to enjoy life, and sometimes, you want dessert first. And thats okay.
6. Saying no.
Feeling guilty for not wanting to hang out is not going to do you any good. If you don’t want to do something, say no. Sometimes you just need time to re-charge yourself, and thats okay. Just because you don’t want to hang out, doesn’t mean you are a bad person or friend. It is totally fine to stay in and binge watch your favorite Netflix show.
7. Saying yes.
Feel like you’re too busy to hang out, but REALLY want to? GO! You will make time for your busy life. It can be refreshing to take a break and spend time with friends. With that being said, I wouldn’t recommend having a wild night and going into work the next day, but everything in moderation. You have to make time for play too. All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy.
8. Taking a selfie.
Just because you post a picture of yourself doesn’t mean your a narcissist. You are allowed to love who you are, and love being in your own skin. In fact, I highly encourage it. When you love yourself, you attract love, and you will spread love.
9. Protecting yourself.
Let go of what no longer serves you. If something or someone is no longer benefitting you, and is now draining you, let it go. Its okay to take care of yourself, and to be a little selfish.
10. Taking a personal day.
If you need a day to yourself, you need a day to yourself. Your team will manage without you. Let go of that guilt. Sometimes if you just keep “pushing through,” you will push to your breaking point. We don’t want that, so how about that personal day?
Scarves are IN! Bandanas, scarves, neckerchiefs…. whatever you want to call them, I’m in! They are the perfect little accessory, and can totally transform an outfit!
I was talking to my mom on the phone a few months ago and we were talking about how neck scarves were in again, and my mom told me she had a ton of them sitting in her closet from the 80s, and that I had dibs to any that I wanted. So naturally she sent them all to me in the mail hahah.
Turns out my mom used to sell these bad boys. They are made by a designer named June Crichfield. This one in particular is made from a print of an old Heinz ketchup advertisement. She uses all kinds of food company ads to print her scarves like Hersey and McCormick & Co. So cool right?!
I wanted to show you guys some of my favorite ways to wear these:
#1 The Boy Scout Tie
This one is super easy, and good for the hot weather, since its not up around the neck. It also feels the least “fashion risk-y, ” for those of you who are not quite ready to jump on the bandwagon.
#2 The wrap around
This one is really easy to tie, and pretty easy to style. It can be styled similarly to a short necklace, and looks great with button down blouses.
#3 The wrap and baby bow
I like bows, I’m not going to lie. So this one is definitely one of the preferred ways to tie a neck scarf for me. It makes a statement, but it doesn’t take away from the whole outfit.
#4 My fav
This one just seems so Parisian and flirty! I love the way it can jazz up an outfit.
Want some more ideas? Tie it to the strap of your handbag, wear it as a headband, or even as a bracelet. The possibilities are endless!
What are your thoughts on this new trend? Let me know in the comments!
Our second stop on our vacation was at Kill Devil’s Hill in North Carolina, affectionately known as OBX. Jason and I were able to meet up with my family there, which was a change of pace. We had so much fun!
A few of my mom’s friends let our family stay at their house there, and we were within walking distance of the beach! Jason and I had fun searching for sea glass and walking down by the shore.
After arriving at Kill Devil’s Hill, Mom, Jason and I went over to the Wright Brother’s Memorial. I definitely recommend taking a trip there if you are in OBX.
The hill was definitely a climb with my injured knee, but the view was worth it!
PS- This dress is from Target, and I basically live in it. It is super comfy, and was great for our long drive from Charleston. I threw on some slip on shoes and a chunky necklace and it made for a great travel outfit. After touring the museum, we relaxed with the family and took a nice long NAP!
Our first full day in OBX was one of my favorites on the whole trip. We rode horses on the beach! What a dream! We drove down to Cape Hatteras National Seashore and Recreation Area, and met the team from Hatteras Island Horseback Riding.
If you are ever in the area and want to do this, I highly recommend Hatteras Island Horseback Riding. They were great, and very accommodating. They were also pretty reasonable with pricing for our family. Seriously guys, how cute are they?!
After we were done with the horses, we hit a couple of lighthouses and museums on our way back north.
The first one we hit was the Cape Hatteras Lighthouse. We climbed all 257 steps to get to the top! I think this was my favorite lighthouse. I love the classic black and white!
We then saw The Bodie Light house (which we were too pooped to climb! 😉 )
This is Jason’s vacation hat, and it was one of the best things to have happened on the vacation hahah! The next day we took a little trip over to The Whalehead Club in Corolla, which was GORGEOUS! The house was designed completely in art nouveau and had some amazing art throughout (like Tiffany’s glass!). We took the house tour, which brought us through 21,000 square feet of history. The house was used for many different things throughout history, so it was very cool to spend time in.
Unfortunately you can’t take photos inside, hence the lack of photos on this place. But trust me, it’s gorgeous!
We also visited the The Currituck Lighthouse after that. This was my mom’s favorite. The lighthouse is just around the corner from Whalehead. We decided not to climb, but it was definitely worth the visit.
Overall, OBX was BEAUTIFUL! We definitely enjoyed our stay there. It was a more relaxing part of our vacation. We cooked at home, took lots of naps, and used the time to power back up for the next couple of days ahead.
I interrupt your usual browsing of pretty photos, outfits, and cats to bring you a pretty important announcement about my life.
Life is about to change for me, in a big way. I am sad to announce that I will be leaving Anthropologie and retail. But, I am happy to announce thatI have accepted a Social Media Marketing Manager position with Spherion! This will be a huge new adventure for me. Also, in September I will be moving back to Naples! Jason and I are both from Naples, and both of our families are there. We are so excited to come back to our home town. Jason will be transferring to FGCU and finishing up his degree there.
When trying to balance my lower chakras, one of the challenges I have had is this overwhelming feeling of not being financially secure. This can impact your feelings of safety and security in the physical world. I have had to work full-time, and hold another part-time job just to stay afloat. I asked for answers, and the universe spit one out for me. I had already been working for Spherion part-time for about a year when they decided to take my position full-time. It has been a waiting game while they figured out what this position would entail, and if it would work for my life. But, in the end, it is a great opportunity for me. I am happy to be able to take my life in a new direction.
Another thing that has been a huge burden on my life was the schedule that retail offers. The schedule is never consistent, I don’t have very many weekends, and it is hard to keep a balance. With this big change, I will finally have a set schedule, and will be able to plan my life around that. It think it has been really hard not to have a regular schedule. My sleep cycle is always off, and even my eating habits have suffered. This job should offer a really great improvement for my over all well being.
Also, I really hope to get back into theatre! I used to perform in shows and plays all through childhood and even into college. In Tampa, there isn’t a whole lot of great options for the community. I hope to participate in community choirs and theatre once I get back in Naples. Plus, my schedule will allow me to attend regular rehearsals and such. When I had this revelation about being able to perform in the arts again, I literally started to cry. I had forgotten how much it actually meant to me. I miss it so much, and I can’t wait to dive back in.
There will be more to come on this, but I am very excited to start this new journey!
Jason and I recently embarked on a driving trip through the Southeast. This was our first road trip together and it was quite successful. I did a crap ton of planning ahead of time so that things would go smoothly. I also did tons of research to find out the places that were worth while. We spent about two days in each city, so I am going to post a little guide of some of our favorite places to check out. We are coffee lovers, so there will be lots of shops included!
Today’s guide: Charleston.
Our first stop was Black Tap Coffee. We had been driving since 5am and didn’t arrive until around 12pm, so it was definitely time for a cup of coffee.
The vibes were great. The shop was smaller, so it was a little hot with all of the people crammed into it, but other than that, we had no complaints. We talked to some of their baristas about good places to explore in the area, and they had some great suggestions. Black Tap just started roasting not too long ago, so we talked a little about that, and ended up buying a bag of beans from them. If we lived in Charleston, this would probably be a frequent hang out spot for us. We quickly did some work (yes we both worked on our vaca!) and then headed out.
We passed the Old Jail on our way through the neighborhood… you know… casual. The Old Jail building served as the Charleston County Jail from its construction in 1802 until 1939.
We wanted a real Southern experience, so we decided a trip to a historical plantation would do the trick. We went to Middleton Plantation, and it was BEAUTIFUL!
Middleton Place is a National Historic Landmark and home to America’s Oldest Landscaped Gardens. According to the website, “Built in 1755, the House Museum interprets four generations of Middleton Family, with extraordinary family furniture, silver, porcelain, rare books and portraits on display. Birthplace of a signer of the Declaration of Independence, Middleton Place and the Middletons have played an important role in American history. The property has miraculously remained under the same family stewardship for some 320 years, and today, successfully preserves history for visitors to enjoy.” Being a history buff, this was pretty impressive!
There were gardens on gardens on gardens! It was fun to sort of get lost in the different parts of the property. PS- it’s 65 acres! Talk about a big garden! I loved that I kept seeing hydrangeas everywhere I went! I love them, and they don’t just grow like that in Florida, so it was a pleasant surprise
We toured the gardens, the chapel, the stables, the mill, the many graves throughout the gardens, as well as the slave cemetery, but we did not tour the house. The house tour is not included in the admission price, for future travelers. There are many ways to tour Middleton Place, but we decided a self guided tour was best for us because we like to explore!
It was extremely hot, so we were happy to check into our AirBnb after that. After we were showered up, we headed out to dinner.
We went to The Grand Bohemian for a cocktail to start
If we weren’t doing Air Bnbs the whole trip, this would have been an excellent choice for a hotel. It was super quirky, and we loved the rooftop bar!
We were extremely impressed with the food and the service at this place. We HIGHLY recommend it. They serve everything for sharing, so Jason and I were able to order several different things, which is always a plus. Everything was fresh, and beautifully displayed. They also had vegetarian options, which was a huge plus for us.
Then we went to Edmund’s Oast for an after dinner drink, which was conveniently located right behind the restaurant. This place was also recommended by the baristas at Black Tap. The atmosphere was really cool, and we were able to sit outside under the twinkle lights. We didn’t find it to be over crowded, which is often our complaint with bars. The beer was great, and it was exactly what we were looking for. It was the perfect way to end our first day of vacation.
The next day we did a lot of walking, and boy was it HOT!
We began at Poogan’s Porch for brunch. We were sure to make a reservation here, as we heard it gets packed quick! There was a line out the door when we arrived right before opening.
Jason must have gotten shrimp and grits at every restaurant we went to on this trip, so of course, that is what he ordered here too. I am not a fan of grits, but these were EXCELLENT! We wished we could have been seated outside, because the patio was adorable and so was the front porch.
We then went to White Point Gardens, also known as The Battery.
I mean, this place was stunning. It is right on the water, and the perfect place to enjoy a picnic or just some casual wanderings. White Point was first used as a public garden in 1837. With the outbreak of the Civil War, it became a fortification for the city. Also, in the 1720s a famous pirate named Stede Bonnet was hanged here with another 50 more of his kind. He was later buried nearby. You can find a memorial of him in this park as well.
PS- this top is from Anthropologie, and was great for this extremely hot day! You can find it here!
We wandered down some of the streets to explore. We were pretty much in awe of how beautiful these houses were!
We had originally planned to take a carriage ride through downtown Charleston, but the temperature was 100 degrees. We still saw horses out and about but knew they must be exhausted. It really was not cool enough for horses to lugging around carriages. We even saw people protesting the horse carriage companies with signs on their porches saying “Too hot for horses!” We decided it was for the best not to take a tour. If we were exhausted, so were they. So, we walked!
My favorite little spot was Rainbow Row. SO GORGEOUS! Jason and I had fun picking out which house would be ours in our imaginations.
After that, we explored in Charleston City Market.
There were lots of local shops and makers. We were happy to explore through the air conditioned portions of the market too! 😉 It was definitely worth the trip through. We were able to find some cool prints to take home for cheap!
Then, we wandered down King Street. This is a major shopping street, full of stores that I LOVE! We happened to come on the second Sunday of the month, and they had the whole street shut down. They had live musicians, and other vendors along the street, which made it even more interesting for us.
I currently work for URBN inc, so I am always interested to go into the different stores they have. Their Anthropologie was beautiful, but our favorite was the Urban Outfitters on King St.
The space used to hold a theater, and then was turned into this beautiful store!
I happily bought a pair of shorts to change into because I was SWEATING! This heat was something different than anything I have felt in Florida. I might have started to get a bit dehydrated too, because suddenly I didn’t feel too well.
We went to a little sandwich shop along King St. to recharge.
We definitely needed a little pick me up by this point, so we headed over to Kudu Coffee after that. We liked that it was part bar, and part coffee shop. Jason enjoyed a glass of beer and I enjoyed a glass of wine after our coffees were finished. The decor was eclectic, and there was a great amount of seating outdoors. We really liked the environment. After this, we decided to go back to our Air Bnb to rest.
We chatted with our host, and decided to take their advice on a place for dinner. We headed out to Folly Beach, and went to this hole in the wall bar that served tacos and rice and beans. It was delicious, and had a great price tag! It was called Chico Feo. This seemed like the kind of place that locals could stay a while. The bar was outdoors, with dogs freely roaming. The service was quick and friendly. It was perfect, and gave us an excuse to see Folly Beach.
We walked across the street to the beach as the sun was setting. We dipped our feet in, and admired the pier, and headed in for the night.
In the morning, we started our drive to the outer banks in North Carolina.
When I heard the news I was in the middle of Charleston City Market, and I immediately started to tear up.
…. Why? WHY!? I wanted to scream. But we were in the middle of a crowded market. I felt overwhelmed with sadness.
Those poor people… their families… what will they do? Why did they deserve this? They didn’t.
I was speechless… I didn’t even want to finish reading the story.
The story has been marinating in my mind all day. I tried not to let it ruin my day because after all, I am on vacation and I should try to enjoy myself… But I can’t help but to continue think about it. I feel a weight in my heart that can’t be lifted.
Those people who lost their lives… they could have been some of my closest friends. I have always been close to many people of the LGBT community. I grew up only knowing that love is love, and that you should be free to love whoever you want, no matter what sex, gender, or race. I will never understand those who think otherwise. It is love. There is no need for hatred or judgment. It is just love, there is no reason to fear it.
Who are you to tell others how they should love? I could probably write about that for a long time. Acceptance of all kinds of love is the only thing that makes sense to me.
This horrible incident happened only an hour away from where I call home, which is why I think this hit me so hard. It makes my heart hurt to think that this is the kind of world we live in. Someone that lives an hour away from me had so much hate in his heart that he murdered 50 people, and hurt numerous others, simply because he didn’t accept the way these people love. This makes me sick to my stomach.
When we got back to our Air Bnb, I had a moment to lay in bed alone. I broke down. I couldn’t help the tears from flowing out of my eyes. They were all innocent, every single one. I can’t understand the amount of hate it would take to commit such a horrible crime. I can’t even fathom how much negativity you would have to have built up in your heart to do this… how could this happen? I am lucky. I am lucky that I was not there. I am lucky that all of my friends are safe in their beds.
I still don’t really know how to feel, but I know that our community will stand together in this. When I saw how many people were waiting in line to donate blood to the victims… it gave me some hope. There are good people in this world. They do outnumber those who have hate in their heart.
This is patchy, and I am sorry, but I can’t quite collect my thoughts or my feelings. My heart is sad, and my mind is on those 50 lost innocent souls.